Post Holiday Grays

I have said this many many time before, and I will likely say it many more times. Wintery weather around the holidays is a wonderful thing. Any time after January 2, wintery weather just turns out to be a cold, gray bucket of suck. I miss the sun. Seasonal effective disorder is a real struggle.

Easier this year though. For one, with the regular exercise, it gets some of the positive brain chemicals and endorphins going. Having a schedule helps too. But I think the biggest thing is awareness that the depression is there. It's kinda like knowing the mugging is going to happen before hand so you can prepare for it.

Diet wasn't terrifying today. Well, except for breakfast. Breakfast was a Bacon King and onion rings from Burger king. Oh well... at least the protein was high. I'm actually pretty proud of myself tonight. I went through the drive-thru line at DQ with Marissa and Tamera and got nothing. I had wanted to get a strawberry smoothie. Not good for me, but at least it's got actual fruit. Ultimately, that plan was thwarted by the fact that DQ doesn't make them anymore. I'm proud of myself because I didn't upgrade to a shake or anything upon this discovery. I just said "Nope. Nevermind. Carry on."

They call that a Non-Scale victory. Bang.

Did Stand Strong 4 around 7:00pm tonight. Other than that, it was pretty much a lounge day after Marissa got home from work. Too cold and gray to want to do anything. No relief in sight as far as the weather goes either. Tomorrows schedule includes Synergy 40 AND dialysis, so I will probably just do the Synergy 40 in a couple of hours as I doubt I'm gonna want to do anything but sleep after dialysis tomorrow. Saturdays are always a rough session. They try to take a little extra fluid off that day because you have 2 days between sessions. (my weekend)